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Wednesday, December 31, 2003

I ran into a stranger as he passed by, Oh excuse me please" was my reply. He said, "Please excuse me too; I wasn't watching for you." We were very polite, this stranger and I. We went on our way and we said good-bye. But at home a different story is told, How we treat our loved ones, young and old. Later that day, cooking the evening meal, My son stood beside me very still. When I turned, I nearly knocked him down. "Move out of the way," I said with a frown. He walked away, his little heart broken. I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken. While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me and said, While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use, But the children you love, you seem to abuse. Go and look on the kitchen floor, You'll find some flowers there by the door. Those are the flowers he brought for you. He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue. He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise, You never saw the tears that filled his little eyes." By this time, I felt very small, And now my tears began to fall. I quietly went and knelt by his bed; Wake up, little one, wake up," I said. Are these the flowers you picked for me?" He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree. I picked 'em because they're pretty like you. I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue." I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today; I shouldn't have yelled at you that way." He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway." I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue." FAMILY Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, The company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of thier lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family, an unwise investment indeed, don't you think? So what is behind the story? yest made mum sad again... argh!! stupid mouth... always sae tings wrong de... den nv make others happy... parents... u... frdz... him... haiz... such a failure!! piano^gal >.< * You don't love someone because they're beautiful. They're beautiful because you love them. Its true you don't know what you've got until its gone, but its also true you don't know what you've been missing until it arrives!!! *

thinking of you @ 9:49 AM

Tuesday, December 30, 2003

Hi... juz for laugh..Cheers... A man recently paid a visit to a millionaire's house, and ended up not having anything to drink despite the offer. Below is how the offer was made to him: Question: "What would you like to have..... Fruit juice, Soda, Tea, Chocolate, Milo, or Coffee?" Answer: "Tea please" Question: "Ceylontea, Herbal tea, Bush tea, Honey bush tea, Ice tea or green tea?" Answer: "Ceylontea" Question: "How would you like it? Black or white?" Answer: "White" Question: "Milk, Whitener, or Condensed milk?" Answer: "With milk." Question: "Goat milk, Camel milk or cow milk" Answer: "With cow milk please." Question: "Milk from Freezeland cow or Afrikaner cow?" Answer: "Uhmm... I will take it black." Question: "Would you like it with sweetener, sugar or honey?" Answer: "With sugar" Question:" Beet sugar or cane sugar?" Answer: "Cane sugar" Question:" White, brown or yellow sugar?" Answer: "Walau! Forget about tea just give me a glass of water instead." Question: "Mineral water or still water?" Answer: "Mineral water" Question: "Flavored or non-flavored?" Answer: "Gee! I give up just forget about everything." haha!! piano^gal >.<

thinking of you @ 4:38 PM

Monday, December 29, 2003

How old am i? A man decided to have a face lift for his birthday. He spends $5,000 and feels really great about the result. On his way home he stops at a newsstand and buys a paper. Before leaving he says to the sales clerk, "I hope you don't mind me asking, but how old do you think I am?" "About 35," was the reply. "I'm actually 47," the man says, feeling really happy. After that he goes into McDonalds for lunch, and asks the order taker the same question, to which the reply is, "Oh you look about 29". "I am actually 47!" This makes him feel really good. While standing at the bus stop he asks an old woman the same question. She replies, "I am 85 years old and my eyesight is going. But when I was young there was a sure way of telling a mans age. If I put my hand down your pants for ten minutes I will be able to tell your exact age." As there was no one around, the man thought what the hell and let her slip her hand down his pants. Ten minutes later the old lady says, "OK, it's done. You are 47." Stunned the man says, "That was brilliant! How did you do that?" The old lady replies, "I was in line behind you at McDonalds." piano^gal >.< =Þ dun frown...stay happy... =Þ

thinking of you @ 9:09 PM

Sunday, December 28, 2003

wat happen btwn us? i dun noe... wat exactly happened? cos we dun chat? we dun share? i dun noe...im lost i reali dun noe wat shld i do now? can tell mi help mi?? mayb u will ask mi end my relationship...i did tot of tt...bt will tt reali work? i dun wanna harm some1 juz cos of my mistake...i noe i harm u n hurt u lots lots... i tot back of e times we had e fun, e laughter, e joys... everyting was happy...did we reali shared our unhappiness? i cant reali rem...mayb tt veri 1st time when we gt close...tt made us close...do u rem wat made us close? i m veri happy 2 haf a frd like u...dun wanna lose u... lost...wat shld i do now? piano^gal >.< * every relationship has their probs... we haf 2 save it 2gether... *

thinking of you @ 4:25 PM

Wednesday, December 24, 2003

veri long nv update le... heez... nt say bz ba... juz dun noe wat 2 write... came back fr thai life still e same as b4 i leave singapore... nth seemed 2 change... haiz... wat shld i do?? i dun noe... do u realised i seldom tell u my probs le... i guess u oso ba... u tend 2 find ur other frdz ba... tt's alrite i understand... i dun blame u... im nt tryin 2 b great or anything... reali... bt im glad we were once so close... we once shard so much... n i will cherish e memories... we r still frdz... dun worry... i shld nt cling on 2 u le... im nt worth ur time... every1 has 2 stand on their own ba i guess... i hope no matter wat we will still contact each other n stay as frdz... yest went out... ate till so full... heez... 1st time @ sakae sushi... veri nice time there... kept laughin... dun noe is go there laugh or eat... heez... piano^gal >.< -=| memories will always remain no matter wat... |=-

thinking of you @ 1:42 PM

Saturday, December 13, 2003

1 more day... our 10th mth is tml... so happy!! den tml nite flyin off liao... so guess i wun b updatin dis few days... will miss my darlings leh n of cos him... juz nw in friendster msg adeline... darlin amelia's twin sis... so happy... haha... wonder hw is abby... my cousin... hope she doin well... esp wif... heez... k la.. dun noe wat 2 write oso... heez... stop here le ba... piano^gal >.< * time move veri fast... make sure we use them wisely... *

thinking of you @ 5:23 PM

Friday, December 12, 2003

yest nite was kind of moody... wanted 2 cry yet cant cry... nvm la... over le... now beta le... heez... so fast comin sch reopen le... den i still haven do hw yet... die lo... hols reali hols... tell stupid self muz study bt nv study haiz... so fast 14 comin le... flyin off 2 bangkok @ nite... den 14 is our 10mth liao... time so damn fast sia... yest nite tinkin of e time he gave mi e cushion... haha... veri soon we 1yr le... rem dis time last yr... mi n her gt veri close de... yest upset my mum again... argh!! y cant i control my stupid temper... haiz... den yest keep shoutin @ my sis... pity her haf such a sis... bt den aft tt we gt laugh la... heez... yest some shoutin was 4 fun de... playin... had fun wif her yest leh... heez i hope we will always b like tt... i noe i veri tough on her... im like my mum... bt den i still cant b understandin 2wards my mum... tt is y im always so upset when i made her sad... haiz... piano^gal >.< mummy... im veri sorry... i dun mean everyting i did 2 u... plz 4gif mi... i love u...

thinking of you @ 9:51 AM

Thursday, December 11, 2003

so i saw you there amongst garbage that was throwing itself and tossing itself, the wind carrying its back, the mess around me was beautiful, chaotic. and i saw in your hand my favorite book and i wondered if you had read it as many times as i had, you didn't look like you cared about the book or the garbage, your eyes were so focused on everystep that laid in front of you, your hair a mess from the wind, but you took no notice, no notice in me. but i was in need of so much affection, so i flung myself into your path, i baricaded your life, and once i looked at you with my eyes, you saw right through me, and knew i was every desperate girl who wanted to get into your head. but you took pity, and singled me out, made me special we got a coffee at the diner down the road, where you smoked a cigarette, leaned slightly on the table and discussed a philosophical theory or two as i looked at you in your splendor;messy brown hair, dark rimmed glasses and button up valu-village shirt, spouting off some theory i didn't think was yours, i realized how useless you are your mind, filled with quotes others have stated, your outfit an ensemble you put together to fit in with the crowd underneath i realized you were every jerk who has ever treated me like shit, and as you leaned in closer to whisper in a husky voice 'lets get outta here babe' i punched you in the face and felt the relief from a thousand before you as i grabbed my coat and walked away with a sense of accomplishment i bid you ado and send you back to the alleyway with the garbage to enjoy your gutter MelBelle reali like dis poem man... i tink its cool!! heez.. piano^gal>.< fate brought us 2gether...

thinking of you @ 1:48 PM

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

GaCkT St0rY... reali find dis guy interestin leh... gt influenced by my darlin amelia... heez... nth 2 do den found dis site where is abt him... amelia... u here... mayb can go c? nt much there bt gt his story... mayb u read b4 le... heez... i like e story there so link it here... i tink sometings he sae veri meaningful... i always tot my parents veri strict wif mi le... bt i tink i veri fortunate le aft readin Gackt's story... like wat amelia said... every parent cant bear 2 let go of their children... i noe i veri unreasonable... argh!! hw can i treat them beta when my character is like tt?? so hard 2 change leh... argh!! piano^gal >.< i love u mum n dad... n of cos my sis amelia...

thinking of you @ 6:44 PM

Illusion and the Dream I have no eyes for anyone but you, and nothing for any eyes other than yours to see. I might not even be at all, it seems, but for the presence of your gaze upon me. I might not really be real, I venture, but for when I see you seeing I am there; and there exists no world without you in it, just as I am not alive without your scope of vision. I hope and dare to dream for you, my love, things are the same, the world in equal measure; I wish I knew I don't dream of what I know I see when you, I know, I know, look at me and linger... Earlbecke piano^gal >.< Do not cry if the Sun sets at the end of the day, because the tears will not let you enjoy the beauty of the Stars...

thinking of you @ 1:20 PM

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

wah... so veri sianz... everyday stuck @ hm... everyday online... haiz... haven been studyin... veri slack rite? die liao lor next yr... i hope i noe wat im doin... keepin tellin others 2 study... yet i dun do study myself... veri bad example horx? i noe i suppose 2 study bt den... so damn hard 2 listen 2 my mind... ARGH!!! izzit onli mi? or every1 oso like tt? oh well... dis few days wif my sis... sometimes play games 2gether... haha... hmm... i love her bt den its so hard 2 treat her well haha dun noe y oso... yes i admit she is cute... haha... when some1 bully her i will sure b e 1st person 2 scold e person... bt den i will always bully her... haha... weird rite? piano^gal >.< blood is thicker den water...

thinking of you @ 6:03 PM

Sunday, December 07, 2003

e feelin of leavin some1 hurts so much... even when u noe it's time 2 let go... it becomes a wound in our hearts... wound heals over time... bt i will always leave a scar behind... if e wound is so deep... it takes much longer... even if its like tt... life still goes on... missin our lost ones is norm... bt if u tink life shld end 4 u... den i tink u r foolish... i'm findin 4 e meanin of life... meanin of livin... when its so hard 2 bear... so hard 2 move on... bt wat else can we do? suicide? many youngsters choose 2 tt... we haf 2 make our life happy... n live it 2 e fullest... wat is e meanin of life? y bother 2 live? 4 others or 4 ourselves? i dun noe.... piano^gal >.< suicide needs courage... bt livin on ur prob n troubles need much more courage... wounds heal... bt e scar will always remain...

thinking of you @ 3:13 PM

Saturday, December 06, 2003

in life we will try 2 find some1 we reali love... love? wat is love? it's such a broad word... meanin? so full of meanin... bt yet when we love we will get hurt... i still dun get y bother 2 love when it's so painful sometimes... e pain can b so hard 2 bear... when we lost our love ones... it's so hard 2 move on... we feel like dying... dependin on hw much tt person meant 2 u... when it's time 2 let go of some1 cos u tink it's e onli rite way... its so hard... cos u cant bear 2 hurt tt person n cant bear 2 leave tt person... bt ya... if tt person is reali meant 2 b urs... of cos will return 2 u 1day... no matter how long it takes.... meaningful piano^gal >.< missin u always... tinkin of u every moment... cherishin us...

thinking of you @ 7:36 PM

Friday, December 05, 2003

In the seasons of yearning, I have friendship that I miss. In the gentle carings of life, I present you with my sincere wishes... every1 has frdz... choosin frdz is impt... 2 mi frdz r everyting... i may nt show bt it is true... i hate myself 4 nt cherishin wat we've had... bt nw its 2 late 2 regret... we'll nv b e same... cos i believe both of us has changed... every relationship needs communication... even frdship n relationship in e fam... tt's wat i've learnt most... piano^gal >.< wat is yours will always be yours... wat is nt yours will nv b yours no matter how hard u try 2 save it fr leavin u...

thinking of you @ 11:09 AM

Thursday, December 04, 2003

sianz... everyday stuck @ hm lookin aft my sis... bt well... ok la... @ least im spared fr where 2 go... wat 2 do outside... wat clothes 2 wear... blah blah blah... haha... so fast dec le... 2003 goin 2 end le... so many tings happened dis yr... well... wat 2 do? tt's life movin on 2 e next yr... sure a bz yr 4 mi... cos o level's ma... yupx... hope can update here though... heez... den muz start studyin extra hard le... cos dis yr results nt tt gd oso... haha... hmm... dun noe hw e ppl study de sia... can get less den 15 pts 4 L1R5... heez... if wanna get into gd poly muz reali jia you le worx... bt den horx... i so slack... haiz... oh well... hu likes 2 study anyway?? heez... piano^gal >.< no matter wat happens... life still moves on...

thinking of you @ 4:28 PM